I’m preparing for publication a journal article about “feeling fat” on Twitter. The widespread phenomenon of feeling fat, hitherto unexplored by scholars, saddens many of us because it normalizes body shame and imbues fat with moral meaning. I suggest, however, that to treat feeling fat as an ersatz emotion or individual pathology forecloses a feminist analysis that would historicize feeling fat.
Looking at texts such as Roxanne Gay’s Hunger, I’m investigating how American writers of fat memoirs come to authorship during an “obesity epidemic.” Within a medicalized society deeply suspicious of the fat, female body, how do these authors claim moral authority, and how do their works appeal to a mass audience?
Raised on self-help books and the power of positive thinking, a Midwestern twentysomething—me—is shamelessly optimistic about her future. Until, a month before grad school ends, I am diagnosed with a disease I have never heard of and told I have thirty years to live. Why does a chronic illness feel like a moral failure? This memoir details my experience growing up with New Age parents and in a self-help culture where it is assumed that, with hard work and positive thinking, anything is possible.
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We live in a culture that compels us--especially women--to feel bad about our bodies. Many of us believe that, if we find the right diet or purchase the right products, we will acquire health and beauty once and for all (starting Monday!). As a cultural historian, I study the history of this thinking and how it contributes to broader social narratives about gender, selfhood, and citizenship. My research explores how social meanings get mapped onto bodies and how our well-behaved (or misbehaving) bodies come to define our sense of self as worthy, moral, and good (or not). I am a PhD student in the American Studies program at Brown University.